A few weeks ago, I found myself in the midst of an existential crisis…or something like that.
It started at my annual company meeting when a coworker received an award for 30 years of employment. It kind of freaked me out a little bit. Now, I don’t know this lady very well (It is a big place with lots and lots of employees); I have no idea how much she loves–or doesn’t love–her job, but for me, the thought of working 30 years any where kinda makes my chest feel tight. Actually, just the thought of living in the same city for 30 years makes my chest feel tight, and I start having trouble breathing.
The next day, while driving to work, I passed a construction site for a new car wash, which made me think what is the point of another car wash…which somehow turned into what is the point of anything!?!
Basically, the new car wash and the 30 year award spiraled into a looming anxiety about my own mortality and the meaning of life. Yeah, I know, I tend to be a bit dramatic at times.
So….I bought a camera. I decided I needed creativity to stave off the impending anxiety/apathy cycle. So, um yeah, I bought a nice camera that I have no idea how to use, but I feel better already.
I’ve been watching this guy‘s tutorials on Youtube and have made the teeniest eek of progress, as in, I now know what a few of the terms like aperture and ISO mean, but I am in no way ready to launch my inevitable Facebook photography page 😉