What is the meaning of life or Why I bought a new camera

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A few weeks ago, I found myself in the midst of an existential crisis…or something like that.

It started at my annual company meeting when a coworker received an award for 30 years of employment.  It kind of freaked me out a little bit.  Now, I don’t know this lady very well (It is a big place with lots and lots of employees); I have no idea how much she loves–or doesn’t love–her job, but for me, the thought of working 30 years any where kinda makes my chest feel tight.  Actually, just the thought of living in the same city for 30 years makes my chest feel tight, and I start having trouble breathing.

The next day, while driving to work, I passed a construction site for a new car wash, which made me think what is the point of another car wash…which somehow turned into what is the point of anything!?!  

Basically, the new car wash and the 30 year award spiraled into a looming anxiety about my own mortality and the meaning of life.  Yeah, I know, I tend to be a bit dramatic at times.

So….I bought a camera.  I decided I needed creativity to stave off the impending anxiety/apathy cycle.  So, um yeah, I bought a nice camera that I have no idea how to use, but I feel better already.

I’ve been watching this guy‘s tutorials on Youtube and have made the teeniest eek of progress, as in, I now know what a few of the terms like aperture and ISO mean, but I am in no way ready to launch my inevitable Facebook photography page 😉

Crisis averted.

A sample from my first "photo shoot"

A sample from my first “photo shoot”


  • Reply Cynthia April 23, 2016 at 11:26 am

    Good for you. I love the idea that you bought a camera out of an existential crisis. Taking pictures always lifts my spirits.

    • Reply darabre@gmail.com April 23, 2016 at 8:51 pm

      Still in the learning phase, but it is pretty fun 🙂 Thanks for stopping by!

  • Reply Lori April 26, 2016 at 2:40 pm

    Yes, I can definitely relate to the feeling you were getting hearing about someone being at a job for 30 years. Just thinking about where I will be in 30 years gives me a slight headache. However, your idea of buying a camera sounds great! I have actually been thinking about that lately as well. I tend to take pictures on my cell phone, but there is definitely a difference between those pictures and a really nice camera.

    • Reply darabre@gmail.com April 26, 2016 at 6:25 pm

      I think the trick will be learning how to use it! 🙂

  • Reply Roselle CT January 7, 2017 at 8:05 pm

    I worked in the corporate for a decade. It was a goal I set when I landed my first job. I made sure I saved enough money (i didn’t) before I retire. I just can’t fathom the idea of being an 8-5 slave until I’m too old to enjoy life.

    What camera did you buy? I only use a Sony Xperia camera phone during blogging events and somehow feel like I need a respectable one.

    • Reply darabre@gmail.com January 8, 2017 at 10:52 am

      Exactly!!! I keep asking myself what is the point of all this work? I don’t want to just live for the weekend.

      I bought a Nikon D5300. It was on sale at Best Buy 😀

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